Good numbers

117 - that was my blood sugar level this morning (fasting) when i tested. Even better than the 134 the other day. I have found that it is incredibly difficult to get "excited" about eating right now. The limitations, the lack of diversity, etc - it all makes me kinda lethargic when it comes to eating. I know I need to get the protein in, but no matter how much I know that - I don't want to eat. I don't want another protein shake, I don't want another cream soup, I don't want another mousse, I just want to eat something semi-normal, or at least different. Cream of Wheat did the trick for a few days, but last night it was really clumpy and I couldn't eat it b/c of that, and it just kinda ruined it for me. Thank God on the 8th I get to start eating "pureed" foods, which basically means there will be a heck of a lot more variety. But even at that, I have to be on that until the end of the month, and I have a feeling that I will be sick of that by the end of the month. I just want to get back to eating food. I realize it is going to be small quantities, but there are foods that I have certainly eaten over and over and over again in the past.

Another hurdle is the 75g of protein I need a day. When i asked the dietitian the other day if the 75g was a permanent or temporary state, she said it was my requirement from here on out. Which, is kinda scary. But either way, right now, I could have some pudding (thinned down with milk) or some jello or something different, but it wouldn't give me much in the way of protein, and since I am only drinking between meals I am completely unable to have anything but something relatively high in protein. I don't have a clue how I'm going to be able to eat 75g of protein in a day with just 3 meals, 2 snacks and nothing in between. Sure there are plenty of high protein foods out there, but as it stands right now, I am pretty much sticking to protein foods and I'm having somewhat of a challenge getting to 75 unless I drink one or more of my protein shakes a day. Yeah, I have some special drinks that will give me protein between meals, but even that won't last forever (and they kinda suck when it comes to flavor).

Oh well. At least I'm losing weight, and I'm still eating. I just wish that I could get excited about what I'm eating so that it wouldn't be so hard to get myself to eat.

Yesterday's weight: 367
Current weight: 366
Weight Lost: 1 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 16 lbs