Loser!

Haha, I'm a loser. Down to 348.2 now. I'm under 350 lbs for the first time in probably a decade. Maybe not quite a decade, but close.

I've been working out every other day, alternating between cardio and weights as I have probably mentioned in previous posts and it seems to be working out rather well. I plan to start adding a day or two a week to this rotation. Probably just a day at first. I'm not feeling exhausted the next day and I would like to see what it would be like if I did cardio-weight-cardio or weight-cardio-weight 3 days in a row. If I do that, and I'm not tired, then I don't know what to do.

My blood sugar numbers are also excellent. Around 110 in the mornings before I eat. Given that when I started I was around or above 150 in the mornings before I ate, this is a huge improvement. I get my A1C checked around mid-october and hopefully the number will be as excellent.

Not much else to report. Still no job, still taking care of my son. He's almost one now (less than a month away). He can still be a handful, and given that I am still having problems sleeping at night, when the wife leaves for work before 11am (which is pretty much a given anymore) I have to fight him to keep him resting with me (or at least stay passive while I do it). I've tried getting up earlier, but it doesn't help me fall asleep. I currently take the sleeping agent in Tylenol PM (without the tylenol of course). It helps, but it still takes a while to work, which is kinda sad given that I was under the impression that medications, in addition to alcohol and sugars and similar, would have a very quick effect on my body as they would enter my small intestine quickly. Hopefully I can resume my old sleeping medication (trazadone) when I go in for my checkup when I get my A1C checked. That stuff would work much more quickly, and it was much more effective as well (of course, it is prescription). We shall see though, maybe there is another drug out there that isn't trazadone as I stopped it last time because of nightmares.

At any rate - weight report below!

Last weight: 350.2
Current weight: 348.2
Weight Lost: 2.0 lbs
Total Weight Lost Since Coming Home: 33.8 lbs
Total Weight Lost Since August 3rd: 53.8 lbs

Back Pain

I suffer from a degenerative and herniated disk in L4 and L5 of my lower back. I also tend to (somehow) strengthen one leg over the other to a point that it pulls my lower back slightly out of alignment (at least this was the case years ago when they diagnosed me). All of this means that at some points in time, I suffer from pretty extreme back pain. Sometimes it is mild though. Right now I have back pain, and my chest pain is flaring up a little bit. So, I'm at a loss. I think the chest pain is due to inflammation of some sort (or perhaps from heartburn?). And my lower back pain is definitely due to that. So it should be easy to correct for me. I used to be on naproxen 500mg twice a day. Only problem is that it is a NSAID (Non-Steroidal Anti-Inflammatory Drug) and NSAIDs can wreak havoc on your stomach. As I already have a pretty sensitive stomach due to the recent remodeling down there I have been told that NSAIDs are not allowed.

So what to do? The tylenol doesn't do anything but dull the pain a little, so I've taken one of my stronger pain killers to help, but I decided not to work out today. I've been good about it, but I'll go tomorrow evening, and we'll see if my wife and son can't come with me (as family night is always fun). I never get quite the exercise in the pool that I get in the gym because I'm self conscious about my swimming and I'm not 100% comfortable with the exercises they've given me yet. Perhaps I should go to the clinic they're having for swimming and kick turning. That way I can do really well in either place and give my back a break from time to time.

I think it is the running, it is really hard on my back. But, I don't care. It is important to me to be able to see the progress in both my stamina and my speed, as while it is not a measurement of my physical condition on its own, it is a point that I can use to determine if I am improving or staying the same. I was also always so slow when I was younger. After being in sports until around 4th grade (and then not having any sports to play as my parents couldn't afford it) I lost my ability quite a bit. In junior high I remember struggling to run a mile. In high school it would kill me to do the "10 minute runs" and all that for wrestling. I remember in junior high we had to run a ways to the field and I just couldn't do it and had to quit, which really killed my desire to be in football for years to come. But no matter the case, being able to run a decent distance - and at a decent speed - is very important. It is something that I want to regain no matter what. So even if I have some pain from it, and need to take pain killers to deal with that pain - I would rather that than no progress in speed and stamina. Right now I can run at 6.5 mph and get a mile in (as I said in previous posts) in about 16:45. I want to improve that. I want to be able to do a mile in 10 minutes or less.

On a side note, I ate Steak N Shake last night. The wife had a huge craving (has had one for a while I guess) and I've really been dying for their chili. Well, let me tell you - the chili is a bad idea >.< The fat content that I could find was rather high, actually VERY high. But it was pretty high in protein. I'm glad that I had baked beans to fall back on as well. I ate those first, and while pretty high in calories - only 1 gram of fat and a lot of protein (and not much in the way of sugars). So that was good. In addition, I was looking up nutritional information, and the chili from Wendy's is actually pretty decent. It isn't a "eat all the time" thing - but it is definitely better than a lot of other options. And I found out that you can actually "build your meal" on www.wendys.com - so you know (about) what you are eating when you go and order something, rather than having to add it all up yourself. It even lets you personalize some of it. While Wendy's isn't a "healthy place to eat" it seems that they are taking strides to help people make better choices - which I fully support.

Finally, I lost a little more weight. Which is great! I only have .2 more pounds till I drop below 350!

Last weight: 351.4
Current weight: 350.2
Weight Lost: 1.2 lbs
Total Weight Lost Since Coming Home: 31.8 lbs

Fun times with weights

I did weight lifting last night and then sat in the steam room. It was very nice. I also did some cardio. When I got on the scale last night (not an official weight, but whatever) it was 350.something - this morning it was 351.4 - which is great. I'm definitely seeing some tone come back to me, but not a whole lot. But whatever. I did two sets last night and feel pretty okay today. Nothing like the first workout.

Also, with the wight loss for today, I have broken 30 lbs lost since coming home. I have lost a total of about 51 lbs since my starting weight of about 402 on August 3rd.

Last weight: 353.2
Current weight: 351.4
Weight Lost: 1.8 lbs
Total Weight Lost Since Coming Home: 30.6 lbs

16:45

When I first aimed for a mile, it was under 20 min (which I barely got) the next time was just to push myself. Got it around 18 min. Now I'm down to 16:45. I was able to run at 6mph on a treadmill. Again, not a feat of strength for any normal person - but for me, and for someone still weighing over 350 lbs, I'd say it is pretty impressive. Granted, I can only sustain that speed for about a minute, and my heart rate skyrockets, but I can do it.

I haven't weighted myself yet today, but I'll try and do that and get a report in. I can tell I'm losing weight and toning up - other than the numbers - because clothes that were tighter even when I got home are now starting to fit loosely. One thing I don't like is I'm getting some folds in my skin where now that my skin isn't being fully stretched it has room to fold and whatnot. Kinda annoying, but hopefully over time it'll go away. Another way I can tell that I've lost weight is that I can see my toes. No, I don't mean over my belly, I have always been able to look down and see my toes. I mean my toes used to be pretty much sraight. Now there is definition between part of my toe and the area around the nail (the pad). It probably sounds really confusing, but my toes are losing weight too, lol.

And I mentioned greek yogurt the other day, I've found that Yoplait greek (blueberry and honey vanilla, I don't like the strawberry) are pretty good, but for people used to regular yogurt (such as myself) it needs about a half a tbs of splenda to make it close to what you're used to. The Dannon vanilla yogurt (not vanilla honey) is actually a little sweeter than other brands I've tried and again, with a 1/2 tsb of splenda it is really good. One thing I would like to mention is that Greek yogurt is thicker than regular yogurt. The major difference (and why it has so much more protein) is that they strain out just the "yogurt" and separate the watery milk out. Many people compare it to a sour cream consistency. My son likes it (surprisingly) and I do as well, but if you try it be prepared for a different consistency. I also recommend going with a fat free version simply because it is healthier for you. And as always, regular yogurt isn't a bad choice - it is still a good one. Greek yogurt just has more protein, and for people like me who need to work hard to get all of their daily protein it is a big help to double the protein in breakfast.

Last weight: 354.4
Current weight: 353.2
Weight Lost: 1.2 lbs
Total Weight Lost Since Coming Home: 28.8 lbs

A quarter of the way there

My mother-in-law talked to me briefly the other day, and brought up a good point. I am a quarter of the way there. Well, technically 20%ish. But no matter the case, I'm quite on my way. My goal (personally) is to get to a healthy BMI and basically not have any risk factors or out of the normal range numbers when taking blood tests. This would put me around 180-200 lbs (well, maybe a little less). But no matter the case, I'm well on my way there. Oh, and only 10 more days and i can start eating food again. Like, REAL food. Well, sorta, still needs to be soft, but it is better than the "full liquids" I was on before, and better than having to puree everything and anything I want to eat.

Last weight: 355.0
Current weight: 354.4
Weight Lost: .6 lbs
Total Weight Lost Since Coming Home: 27.6 lbs

One month later

It has been exactly 1 month since the surgery. Pain is almost completely gone (a few things here and there) the chest pain has pretty much gone away, and I have lost a significant amount of weight. My blood sugars are much, much lower than they were a month ago, my diet has progressed very well (only a few problems here and there) and overall I am very pleased I went through the surgery. It isn't easy, by any means, but it is definitely something I do not regret doing.

It is almost unreal. I can't even tell (other than the quantity I can handle, and the pain I sometimes get) that my body has been rearranged. I can't tell that my stomach has been cut and reattached to my intestine. I feel better than I have in years, and I probably owe that to the fact that my sugars are starting to fall in line, I'm taking my vitamins to prevent severe deficiencies and in general, my body is getting in better shape. It is also incredibly nice to see pound after pound come off my body. Never before in my life could I have had success like this. I would have either reverted to my old ways by now or I would have simply hit snag in the weight loss. Even as a wrestler in high school I couldn't lose weight when I wanted to. I would eat less, work out harder and try my best to lose weight. I remember one season I actually gained maybe 10 lbs, and yet I watched what I ate each day in an attempt to make weight.

I am able to wear clothes that I could not. I'm currently in a pair of khaki shorts that I don't even remember where I got them, but they are mine - and they fit. My shirts that used to need to be stretched as I put them on so they would fit reasonably now - without any stretching - fit loosely. My shorts that I had basically worn day in and day out for years (they were the only ones that fit comfortably) now are my gym shorts (as they should have been in the first place). They're loose and I can't have much in my pockets for fear of them falling down.

My appetite is so different I can barely explain it. About the only times I seem to get hungry are when my sugars are going out of whack. Other than that I basically don't get hungry. I have to remind myself to eat, otherwise I won't. My only real drive to eat is to make sure that I get my 75 grams of protein in a day. Before the surgery I'd want to eat and eat and eat. Sometimes to the point that I felt stupidly full. Now not only can I not do that, but I have no drive to do that.

My diet improves (beyond the puree stage) in just a couple weeks (October 1st). With the introduction of soft foods I'll be able to get more protein and calories, but that will also present the challenge of continuing to lose weight. Either way, though, I'll enjoy being able to eat things again rather than having to spend an hour every couple of days preparing beans, tuna and other things for me to eat. Which has probably been one of the biggest annoyances (other than the texture). We shall see starting Oct 1st how my body does with the soft foods. Even now sometimes the pureed foods make my stomach hurt something fierce, and is usually a sign that I didn't eat slowly enough or that I needed to mush it around with more saliva (eat slower). Still no chewing, but hey - at least I get to enjoy my food, right?

Medications interact differently as well. They tend to go into effect quicker and have more of an oomph, but to some degree do not last as long. I'm sure this is due mostly to the fact that as soon as they hit my intestine they are rapidly absorbed, though I have no idea if this is the case. It could also be my low calorie diet. Either way, it is certainly something that takes getting used to.

Looking forward, I am happy to think that within a year I'll probably be close to where I want to be. I do have some worries - such as how much hanging skin I'll have, will I lose too much weight, and will there be any future complications that are not apparent now. But, I know that all of those things can be dealt with. What I know couldn't have been dealt with was the complications that were going to soon start piling up due to my weight. I'll be 30 next year. Hopefully I'll be a healthy 30 year old looking at the next 30 years of my life to be better than the last (not that they haven't been good).

And my wife has been incredibly supportive of me this past month. Sometimes more than others, sure - but she has been supportive. She too has started to work out more and has taken an interest in losing weight. While her weight loss will be slower than mine (for obvious reasons) she is still interested in making sure that she supports me both with helping me with my struggles and trying to take part in what I do as well.

Oh, and if anyone wants to pay 78 bucks a month so she can work out with me, let me know, lol. Otherwise she's stuck with the Wii fit and our apartment complex's "fitness center". Too bad the pool is so damn cold right now, otherwise she could really use that. Nice thing is Sunday is "family day" and she can get in for 5 bucks, we can put our son in the day care, work out, and then take him swimming for a while!

At any rate, that is about all, other than a short rant about my muscles below, which are not part of the 1 month "review" of myself.

As far as my muscles, I still can't stretch them out. I still have an unbelievable amount of pain in fully extending my arms (this makes taking care of my son, who got home yesterday, very hard). I'm trying to use heat to help them relax, get the blood flowing and make them easier to stretch. So far, it makes it feel better, but only temporarily. I will likely go and do some cardio today either in the pool or in the gym, either way, I will (hopefully) help work some of this out. If not, then I don't know what to do, just wait it out I guess. This sort of post-exercise pain is not new to me (as a wrestler and football player I felt it many times). However, this sort of pain and having to deal with a kid is. Thankfully my wife will not have to work late tomorrow and she has Sunday off so that I can try and rest if need be.

Last weight: 356.4
Current weight: 350.0
Weight Lost: 1.4 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 27.0 lbs

Definitely feel it

I definitely feel it. The workout yesterday has made me sore, tired and slightly crabby. But no matter the case, I can tell for sure that it was a good workout. I look forward to working out more, as it has been a while since I have felt up to it. I've also lost some more weight which is good. Horray!

Last weight: 358.6
Current weight: 356.4
Weight Lost: 2.2 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 25.6 lbs

Sooooore

I'm sore. The weight lifting is very much something I haven't done in a while. I'm still strong, thankfully, but my body isn't used to it that is for sure. My arms are sore, I'm 110% glad that I don't have stairs to my apartment (it was a pain just getting up and down the stairs at the center) and my arms are heavy.

On a side note, right as we got home I had another moment of nausea, sweat and dizziness. My blood sugars were not low when i tested, but who knows.

End story, however, is that I look forward to continuing to work on my muscle tone. The weight system they have can basically work on all of the muscles groups in my body and hopefully I find it easier and easier and easier to do things, get around and generally participate in life.

The gal that I was scheduled with the first time asked "what do i want to get out of this" and at the time I just said "keep up with the kid" - which is important, and probably the most important thing that I want to get. However, I wouldn't be opposed to being able to play softball or baseball next summer, or participate in some sort of competitive sport at times. I'm not a competitive person, but I've always wished I could have played baseball on a more competitive level.

Strep

Wife has strep, which isn't good, I've always been rather susceptible to strep myself. I feel bad for her though, it is apparently painful and she is running a 102.9 fever. I just hope I don't get it, I'm having a tough enough time remembering to eat, I don't need to have it be a pain in the rear to eat in addition to it. The son is going to stay with grandma & grandpa for a few days so that she can recover (as I said in the previous post) and so that I don't have to worry about him, as I am not up to 100% taking care of him. However, this does give me an opportunity to go to the exercise center without worry about her having to take care of him while I do that. Don't know if I'll go yet, but the pool sounds really good, especially the warm water pool, lol. The sauna doesn't sound too bad either :D

But yeah, if anyone was wondering, Hormel makes a really, really good low fat (98% fat free) high protein turkey chili that tastes a lot like their regular chili (as far as I can remember) and except for the fact that it is a bit gritty when pureed, is absolutely wonderful. I would imagine that if I didn't have to puree it that I would not be able to tell the difference and given the fat to protein ratio, as well as not being that bad in terms of calories, you can add a bit of cheese (adding more protein and a little more fat) which adds to the flavor and overall makes a very good meal for me right now (or anyone really).

And greek yogurt isn't that bad. The texture doesn't bother me (a bit thicker than regular yogurt but after reading why I understand, lol). However, it is a little flavorless (at least the fat free stuff, haven't tried anything else). I think I will add splenda the next time to see if I can't beef up the taste and enjoy it even more.

Don't want to get sick

The wife is sick, the boy is cranky and I'm not getting enough sleep. So, it is likely that I will get sick. Ugh. Good news is grandpa is going to pick him up for a few days while meg recovers as it is still tough for me to take full care of him. I can usually handle him during the day (he keeps himself occupied without much help from me) but when my wife gets home he gets really clingy and he becomes a whole new ball of wax. So, since she won't be able to handle that given her state (she aches, her throat is killing her and her nose is stuffed up, she might even have a fever) - well, she won't be able to take care of him. So grandpa is going to take care of him. Good news for us I guess.

On another note, I'm down to 258 now. Well, technically 258.6 - I think I'll start putting the tenth on there simply because that way it is a little more accurate - even though a slight movement while weighing on this scale can change the weight by up to 2 lbs. No matter the case, I lost weight as I thought I would, so that is good. I'm about to try greek yogurt. We'll see how that tastes, and if it is good, I'll be eating that for breakfast most mornings.

Oh well, here's hoping that this week goes by quick.

Last weight: 360
Current weight: 358.6
Weight Lost: 1.4 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 23.4 lbs

Exercise

I just worked out for an hour (well, not just, but yeah). It was interesting. I can still (or now can? I haven't tried in a while) run at 5 miles per hour for at least a minute and I can complete a mile in under 20 minutes. A few years ago I couldn't do this. And at 360 lbs it is still a feat, as most people of my size cannot do much. But, no matter the case - I can still do it. I did 30 minutes on a treadmill and 30 minutes on a recumbent elliptical. Kept my heart rate about 150 for most of it. It was a pretty good workout. The place I go has all sorts of stuff for after, such as shampoo, conditioner and body wash in dispensers in the shower (all are individual showers thank god, no sausage fest there). They also have all sorts of dispensers by the sinks such as shaving cream, mouth wash, lotion, spray antiperspirant and a couple others. It is just crazy.

On Wednesday I have a strength training session so that should be interesting. 9:30 am too - ugh. At least my son will be able to stay in the day care that they have. Sure it might be a small cost, but at least I don't have to worry about it. My biggest worry is strength training + driving. I just hope I don't have a problem - I shouldn't, but who knows.

I think that I should see weight dropping now, it had been fluctuating slightly, going up a little at times, going down, but not dropping below 360. I think I will finally drop below 360 soon though so that is good.

Lap Pool Fun

I had another exercise appointment today - and it was in the pool. Much easier on everything than the other day, however, it was still a pain after. The doctor yesterday didn't seem concerned with my chest pains, saying that it doesn't indicate a problem, and so I hope that they will go away soon. He also said i can go back onto my sleep aid so I'll be trying to use that so that I can reset my schedule (currently going to sleep at 2 or 3 am and waking up at 9 or 10 am isn't working for me).

Bought my wife Wii Fit Plus last night, had a coupon for 5 bucks off and it was on sale used (but in perfect condition) for 16 bucks - not a bad deal all in all. She says she likes it more than the other version, so we'll see how it works out for her. Apparently you can put children (babies as well) and pets into the system to track their weight. My one cat really needs to lose weight, she's a fat lazy cat and if the rest of us are getting fit - she should too.

I'm back to taking care of my son on my own again, so that makes things even more interesting. We're also talking about getting a membership for my wife to the center that I am part of so that she can work out at the same time I do. While we have an exercise room on grounds here at the apartment it is by far easier to both be going to the same place. It makes us both more likely to go. But for now, she has the Wii Fit Plus and I have my center. Which apparently has a steam room and a sauna. I will definitely be taking part in those, I love a good warm sauna to relax in.

And no weight loss since the last weight update. Hopefully it'll start going down. I am supposedly burning upwards of 2500 calories resting per day. I am eating maybe 600-800 but the doctor seemed happy with my weight progress so far so no worries.

Exercise sucks

I have to say, while I didn't do very much - or work very hard - I hurt. My chest hurts particularly bad and I ache. I got cramps in my side and in general, it isn't very pleasant. My weight is remaining about the same as it has been so I haven't really needed to post the current weight that I'm at.

Exercise today

First exercise session today. Or lesson or whatever. I'll let everyone know how it goes later. I'm concerned with the pain and the fact that when my heart starts racing I sometimes get a really bad headache. Oh well.

Fatty?

Well, I"m 50% fat. According to the body pod test - which is apparently as accurate as dunking. But, whatever works. We'll see what it is like after the 12 weeks.

Back at home

I went to the lake this weekend. Ate some things I hadn't eaten before. Found out that restaurants are usually much more accommodating than you think they would be. The places I went were happy to strain out my soups so I didn't have to do it myself and puree them as well. I had seafood bisque pureed and it was really good. Had some cheesy potato soup and that was great too.

Also had some fat free no sugar added frozen yogurt at my favorite vacation spot's ice cream stand. I also somehow got my account hacked. So if you get an email from me with a weird link - ignore it, actually, delete it >.< Not 100% sure how it happened, but it did.

At any rate, I'll start weighing myself again tomorrow and I have my first appointment tomorrow at the place I'll be doing my exercise at for the next 12ish weeks.

low blood sugar

I think I might have had a low sugar attack which is of concern for most people. While it is a concern to me, it is also nice. I have never had low sugars. Ever. So, to get a low sugar attack means that my body is adjusting and reverting from the diabetic issues that I have. At least, that is what I hope it means. It also means that I need to eat a little bit more >.<

Incoming Transmission

Tired, can't sleep at night, sick of this diet, but I've lost weight. Right? Ugh. I had frozen yogurt last night. A place near us has no-sugar-added fat-free frozen yogurt. Has a pretty good protein content and while they only had one flavor there (it changes daily, and it was strawberry-banana yesterday) there are others that are low-sugar or low-fat. The strawberry-banana was pretty good and it gave me something to eat to get away from the normal stuff I've been having. It is interesting to see the prices now that I can't eat like I used to. $4.71 to get both me and my wife something. That is pretty good compared to when we'd go to Cold Stone and spend 12 bucks.

Oh well. my son is tearing up newspaper. It sounds like he is having a lot of fun. He needs a nap too. At any rate, I just got to keep reminding myself that I start the new diet on the 8th. Just a few days away now.

Yesterday's weight: 362
Current weight: 360
Weight Lost: 2 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 22 lbs

Down for the count!

My child has always been consistently unwilling to go to sleep. Sometimes it is easier than others. Many times I have to lay down with him to get him to go to sleep otherwise he will scream in his crib for over an hour until he passes out. I can usually handle either option, but the recent surgery has really made it difficult to lay with him to get him to go to sleep. I am almost always hot, and as a result I sleep in a minimal amount of clothing. With my son, I now have to sleep with a shirt on at all times so that he won't pick at my wounds, scratch my belly or (when I had them) pull at bandages. Well, he's in the crib now, and isn't making too much of a fuss. So, we'll see.

On a side note, I'm happy to say - There are only what, 4 days left of this phase of the diet? And only three weeks after that, I get to get onto "easy" foods that are soft and easy to chew, such as broccoli (steamed), carrots (steamed), soft fruits and the similar. Next Tuesday I go in for a bodypod test. They are basically going to measure my volume and weight and all that jazz and get a pretty accurate test of my fat percentage. They said to wear clothes that is as form fitting as possible. Well - honestly, I don't know that I have anything like that anymore. Sure, maybe at my parents house in a box, but even stuff that I couldn't wear before is fitting me rather loosely - especially around the thighs. I weigh 362 - which means that since the 29th of July I have gone down 40 lbs according to my scale. It also means that since coming home on the 20th I have lost 20 lbs. The doctor said that most people lose 60 lbs in the first 3 months, but he thinks I might lose up to 80. I am not even exercising and I'm dropping weight really fast. It doesn't seem to be muscle, but at the same time, my body is losing weight, so it isn't having to support as much. I just don't want it to go too fast, and I guess that is why I'm required to have so much protein.

My exercise program starts next Wednesday (just in time for my new diet) and so hopefully I'll be able to lose even more weight. I am still consuming very little in a given day (in terms of calories) so I would imagine once I add exercise either I will go into starvation mode or I will drop weight like there is no tomorrow.

I was also thinking about it, I haven't been under 300 lbs since high school (graduated in May 2000, I was over 300 lbs as a junior in HS). My wife has not known me under about 380-390 (we've been together since May of 2006). Once i get below 300 lbs I will, for the first time, actually be the thinnest I have been in over a decade. It seems like just yesterday I was just a chubby kid who loved all-you-can eat and was told "you must finish what you take, don't take it if you can't eat it". And it seems like last week I was running around the soccer field, playing baseball and outrunning my younger brother from yellow jackets.

At any rate, he's out (or at least not crying anymore). So I'm going to go find something to do to occupy my hour or so I'm going to get to myself. And no, I'm not going to clean - so tough cookies wife :p

Edit: Apparently he's just playing with his crib mirror. Either way, he'll go to sleep eventually, and he's not screaming, so that is good.

Yesterday's weight: 362
Current weight: 362
Weight Lost: 0 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 20 lbs

Pooie

I'm in pain. Swimming was a bad idea, I think it pissed off most of my muscles. However, most of my wounds actually look better than they did yesterday. At least the one I was concerned about. The rest look better too, but I think that is more the result of the shower I took after than anything else.

I think I need to rest a bit more though. I think I'm pushing myself too much and paying for it. I weighed myself before I normally do for the day, and I weighed a little bit less. I'll post as soon as I can what the actual weight was.

Adult Swim!

No, this isn't about the fantastic programming, ok, some of the fantastic programming (I'm an anime junkie, but some of the comedy is ok on AS) I went to the pool tonight. Probably a little early for a swim, but I couldn't take it, I needed to relax and I knew the pool would do it (and it did). So now I feel better, but will have to keep an eye on a couple of my incision that are not completely healed over. Shouldn't be a problem as I showered right after but you never know, and cannot be too careful.

Still having some pain, but I'm feeling a little bit more relaxed. I also have one week left on this atrocious diet. I get to start pureed foods on the 8th. And mashed potatoes. I think mashed potatoes with some beneprotein will be very tasty. Maybe. Anyone know where to get some low fat gravy? Dietitian said I can have (and will need for a couple of my recipes) a low fat gravy. We could find some (fat free?) but I doubt the quality and taste. So if anyone knows some brands, be sure to let me know as the hunt is on.

Gas Maybe?

I have been trying to figure out the cause of this pain. The right side is bothering me, and when I lay on it, it feels worse for a bit and then doesn't bother me. In general though, I'm trying to just not piss my body off. However, I have been unbelievably gassy today/last night. I even woke up this morning after several hours of having nothing to eat belching (which hasn't happened since the week of the surgery). So I'm wondering if I had some gas laying around somewhere that kinda worked its way out or something. Who knows.

Oh well, my son is sitting in his high chair eating pea pods and cheese, staring at me the whole time. I should probably go get him soon.

Yesterday's weight: 364
Current weight: 363
Weight Lost: 1 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 19 lbs